I tend to search

for reasons for why I do things, like there has to be some vision or driving purpose. But at times - in the middle of my focus - there isn't. When I'm focused on my dancing, for instance, there is no higher purpose. I simply know that I have to do it. If I don't, I lose my sense of self and a sense of direction in my life. I might not even have a goal or end result in mind. All I know is that I have to dance, or else I do not function...I enter a mental cloud and sit around in a feeling of emptiness. I think it's strange how I feel this way, like this type of thought shouldn't be coming from me. It should come from a top-level dancer who has been doing ballroom all his/her life. Dancing is not all of me, yet it is so important to my well-being that I could never let it go...even if there was no real purpose for doing it - besides needing it to live. Like breathing.