Photo Shoot

If you remember from my Saturn Return post, I'm in a period of breaking free from constraints and developing my true nature...letting go of what I think I should be and manifesting who I am. Part of that is crossing a big item off my bucket list: doing a dance photo shoot. I've wanted to do this since I was about 14 years old, ever since I saw the New York Ballet exercise book with beautiful images of dancers. Of course, I was not professional dancer material, but I still loved dancing and I wanted to capture it on film; freeze it in time.

Years passed and my body went through various phases. I gained and lost weight, muscle, flab, flexibility, and self-confidence repeatedly. There were times I studied dance, yoga, weight training, and nutrition...and there were times I did nothing. All along the way I was hoping to reach a point when everything would come together, when one day I would have the strength, flexibility, and physique of the dancers I admired...or something close to it.

Well, I don't. I'm approaching 30 years old and I haven't achieved the splits, I don't have well-defined muscles, and I can't do impressive leaps in the air or balancing positions. However, I did find a photographer I like and I have an inner drive to get this done, regardless of my abilities.

So I did it. I called the photographer and we had a very good conversation. We will meet next weekend to look at his gallery, discuss ideas, and break the ice so I can be comfortable. What I want to do will require me to be an inner Amy in front of a camera, which is kind of terrifying. But I want to do it and I'm excited for how it will turn out.

The photographer I'll be working with is Ed Flores. You can find his work here: https://www.instagram.com/edfloresphotography/