I do not understand what is going on around me, but things are changing. I felt stagnant in my life until June. I sensed that I had gotten back into a current of movement and I knew things would be changing in a month or two. Essentially, something had to change at the end of July, because I couldn't continue my life the way it had been going. Now that we're getting closer to that point, I see the pieces moving but I don't yet know if they will fall in my favor. It's like watching a game of chess in which you are one of the players, but someone else is moving your pieces. You have no idea if you're going to win or lose. It's a really close match and you hope that whoever is in charge of your game knows what's going on and won't let you crumble.
What's more, many people in my world are going through change too. Specifically, people are finding new jobs and quitting the ones they have. And it's all positive: people are entering careers they've wanted to enter for a while or they're finding jobs that will be paying them more. After going to a conference in Portland and being back in a moving current, I am being hit by change on all sides - internally and externally. There is an energy flowing through Tucson, but - like I said - I don't know what it is...or where it's coming from or where it will take me. All I know is that I'm in it and I'm thrashing around a little trying to gather my bearings (my poor parents - I've been sending feverish texts and making anxious phone calls hoping they have answers for me).
I think things will calm down in two weeks. I'll let you know what happens then.
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